Chocolate? THIS IS DOO DOO BABY!

  its weird how different this term is from the last one, last term i was stuck in some closet room in order to avoid two old crazy people, only going to work and school. it was very lonely and stressful, especially since brenda and larasia were less than supportive, and it was my first time away from home and i only really had nicky to hang out with.
   this term i am in the dorms and i have nicky, amanda evany and aaron as a support group sort if.  i have amanda, and the kaitlyns living with me, and i am having a good time. 
   i do live farther from the school, but the commute is alright. i quit my job, but i handed out resume's and i hated it there anyway, i hate feet i don't know why i applyed there.
   i can't wait for march when i go home, and see everyone again. especially the going to bars part, that was really fun. and i may get to go to bars with evany, which will be fun because she is similar to larasia.
   i have to go to bed now, i may write later

When I was in the military they gave me a medal for killing two men and a discharge for loving one.  ~Epitaph of Leonard P. Matlovich, 1988 (Thank you, Marlene.)

 

Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?  ~Ernest Gaines

 

If homosexuality is a disease, let's all call in queer to work:  "Hello.  Can't work today, still queer."  ~Robin Tyler

 

No government has the right to tell its citizens when or whom to love.  The only queer people are those who don't love anybody.  ~Rita Mae Brown, speech, 28 August 1982

 

You could move.  ~Abigail Van Buren, "Dear Abby," in response to a reader who complained that a gay couple was moving in across the street and wanted to know what he could do to improve the quality of the neighborhood

 

War.  Rape.  Murder.  Poverty.  Equal rights for gays.  Guess which one the Southern Baptist Convention is protesting?  ~The Value of Families

 

Everybody's journey is individual.  If you fall in love with a boy, you fall in love with a boy.  The fact that many Americans consider it a disease says more about them than it does about homosexuality.  ~James Baldwin


 

There is nothing wrong with going to bed with someone of your own sex.  People should be very free with sex, they should draw the line at goats.  ~Elton John

 

I'd rather be black than gay because when you're black you don't have to tell your mother.  ~Charles Pierce, 1980

 

I'm a supporter of gay rights.  And not a closet supporter either.  From the time I was a kid, I have never been able to understand attacks upon the gay community.  There are so many qualities that make up a human being... by the time I get through with all the things that I really admire about people, what they do with their private parts is probably so low on the list that it is irrelevant.  ~Paul Newman

 

For a long time I thought I wanted to be a nun.  Then I realized that what I really wanted to be was a lesbian.  ~Mabel Maney

 

Never be bullied into silence.  Never allow yourself to be made a victim.  Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.  ~Harvey Fierstein

 

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another.  ~William Shakespeare


 

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.  ~Dr. Seuss

 

 i thought i would do this, to organize my thoughts on the subject


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   so my life is just one big joke. i'm going to vent for a little while
so first of all i have a whole lot of assignments to do, i barely finished the ones last week on time and they packed it on this week, and i haven't had one second to work on any of them because of my stupid shoe job that keeps trying to make me work extra hours and trying to screw up my life. (exept im really good at that job, viky likes me a lot) diane and john creep me out a lot, and diane keeps being bossy and trying to suggest things, but shes not really suggesting, shes telling me to or else. i don't know what else, probobly drug me or something.
   and to top everything off, just in case im not stressed enough, brenda and larasia have decided to make me their vent, even though im in vancouver and they are in edmonton, they still try to start fights with me, not matter what i say. the first fight happened because i told them i was going to change my name to tookie clothespin (im not even kidding/exaggerating) and this time a fight almost broke out because both brenda and larasia got super offended (why larasia got offended i have no idea, just for something to get offended by) when i reminded brenda that she was not allowed to bring jaime in my house when she was housesitting for my parents, they both almost blew up. the only reason we aren't fighting right now is because i said as little as possible back to them and took a lot of walks.
   on the bright side my family is coming up for thanksgiving, trevor is not a big full douchebag like B+L and he actually calls and doesn't freak out over the littlest thing, i made a friend in art school, but she is a lot better than me so i have an infirioity complex now

im so excited !!! i just loved that episode

( HO MAN BEST EPISODE EVER )

i have to bitch about a couple things

first off, why has shannon dohrety (however you spell the cows name) made it to season 3 of charmed? she should have been killed off the very first season! you have no idea how happy I was when she died in the last episode of the second season, just to have her revive at the very last second. I ALMOST CRIED!!! then i went on wikipedia and saw that if i wanted to continue the series i would have to put up with her bad acting and bitchy character for another season. i don't really want to continue it anyway, the only character i really like is Phoebe, and that's only sometimes, when she isn't trying to be funny. the whole concept and plot is rather comlicated as well and the "special powers" thing pisses me off. if they are going to be witches they should be like willow, and have a whole set of memorised spells that are completely badass. I like the charater of leo, i just don't like his acting, and the scripts are very badly done.

second, i have to remember to ask dad for the helix necklace for my birthday as well as that kick-ass astrology book cassie brought in during art that completely described me and a bunch of people. i have the name of it and everything so come june 25th, i will be set relationships-wise (im not sure if i can use plural words when hyphenating wise into it but unless i get clarification i will still use it

third i have to contact jenny again tomarrow so that i am not comletely lost for university

fourth, i am getting even more nervous about the group, Trevor's saying he doesn't want to be friends with tara anymore, and that hurts me and he doesn't understand why that hurts me, and i don't really expect him to because a) he's a guy and completely oblivious and b) i have told him absolutely nothing about before we were friends and all of my issues before then. he thinks it because i am leaving, and it is partly because i am leaving, but there is more to it then that and i can't tell him because i will cry. Brenda's rugby stories are getting more and more boring, getting to the point where i can't pay attention. Larasia at least puts something behind the stories, but something about Brenda's story-telling methods just put me to sleep

i am v. troubled

its been a while since I wrote and I have been trying to write more in here just to get the gist of this whole "journal" thing but i digress.
the taboo list didn't work out unfortunately, and everyone is still as on edge as they ever were.
Tara is talking about ultimatums about whether or not she will hang out with us if we don't let curtis into our inner circle. But nobody in our group likes curtis, he completely ignores everyone who isn't Tara, and is v. rude. All she has to do is separate herself from curtis every so-often just to spend an evening with us but she won't do that. she is also complaining about how we threw Trevor a "coming home from Australia" party, but it wasn't even that, it was a "slumber party" on the weekend that Trevor came back, so we just didn't fill Trevor in on anything that was going on. But now Tara has a stick up her ass about it because apparently when she went to Newfoundland for a month, we didn't do ANYTHING for her. We PLANNED to do something for her, as Trevor said, but instead of doing what we planned she went and got Penetrated.
So she is just being a spoiled hypocrite right now and i want nothing more to do with her drama. if she would rather have curtis, who is v. likely to cheat on her given his past record, and completely ditch us, no one is going to be there for her when he does cheat on her, because she has driven everyone away. And given the off-chance he doesn't cheat on her and they get married, who is going to come? she's completely shut everyone out except for curtis!.
and i am completely stressed about university i don't even know how i am going to deal with all my crap, i feel completely useless, and i don't even know what is going on for grad

I'm v. upset all my friends seem to be distant. especially Trevor i don't get it he is so anti-social right now I want to punch him
we are having a whole get together on saturday to talk about our FEELINGs or something
i don't know it was Brenda's idea and we all know that she is not the tastiest sandwich in the picnic basket
apparently we are writing up a list and writing a whole list of taboo subjects for the group like:

Shawn- Shawn is Brenda's Ex who she treats like crap. I'm not even kidding she is abusive and everyone tells her she is but she denies it and says that he treats her badly but he is practically in love with her, for some crap reason because i would never love someone who treated me that badly. but anyway, brenda doesn't like us bitching at her about it so we can't anymore.

Penetration- Tara and her boyfriend had sex. Brenda knew about it the day after, Larasia knew about it 2 months later, Trevor found out from Larasia who called him right after she found out practically, I found out because i was in the room when Trevor found out. Tara learned from a fight she had with Brenda that me and Trevor both know, and everything seemed to be cool until Trevor brought it up at the sleep-over when she was complaining about how we didn't throw her a coming home party.(we tried she didn't show up) Then Trevor said, ever so tactfully "We did, you just went and got penetrated instead!" Tara got mad, and now we can't ever talk about it again.

Poutine-this is something the whole group doesn't want to hear anymore, Trevor and I's infamous "Poutine" fight. he says it in a weird voice and claims that it's the right way, but i say it the english way, and he sounds like something is happening to him from behind when he says it, which it the only problem i have with his pronunciation. otherwise I have no Problem with his anal-rape pronunciation of "Poutine"

and i will add more as they come up, but i will edit this list so yeah...i dunno

again, I'm going to rant, or muse, it depends on what pops into my head at the momeny

But what I am going to talk about now is...

My second Failed attempt at becoming amphydextreous (or left and right handed). It's so hard and especially at school where you have to write fast and neat or you're fucked. And there's me, writing like a child and slower than one. i wish it were easier... but of course nothing is. and i also have to:
-Buy a dictionary, highlight the words I don't know, write them
in a notebook, and then use them appropriately
- Paint something nice, maybe the Tiki statue Trevor got me
from Hawaii
-Get all of my university stuff done so that I am not poor when
i go and so that i have somewhere to live
-Make sure I have a camera for the Sleep-over Party with me
and my friends

And other things that I can't be bothered to think about because I am V. stressed about everything and i have to chill, because I work again today in an hour and I really don't want to but i can't be poor in Vancouver so i have to go. I am also in a bad mood from this university stuff, friend stuff, and school stuff. My Mom is bitching at me now be

i am v. happy at the moment and i am going to try out this crazy "journal" thing that i am really supposed to do with this website

anyway some ranting

i have to work tomarrow, and i hate work because everyone is usually so stupid and crazy sending bad vibes everywhere. they say its a family environment but no one is truthful with anyone and i don't know where i stand with anyone except Trevor and Jessie.

and i have so much scholarship stuff to do i may have to just take stuff out of my sketchbook and send it in and hope no one else was smart enough to apply

i love wicked, its such a good show

and Trevor is back from australia which is awesome because i was getting so bored and i needed intellectual stimulation, except i think i may have to wait on that too because he is V. jet-lagged and can't think of useful arguments or insults to save his life. but i hope he is awake for the big sleep-over party thing because i am so excited for it, and so is Brenda. everyone else i think is a bit iffy on it. and i have nowhere to sleep because Brenda and Larasia go on the futon, Tara goes on the couch because she is small, and Trevor goes on the mattress. so that leaves me sleeping on my drum stool or the foosball table

ill probably write more tomorrow, I'm sleepy and if i don't go to school tomorrow Mr. Chaudry will call me a bitch again

goodnight all!

oh god im going to be bored
i work all spring break and trevor's gone to hawaii austrailia and new zealand and Larasia's going to her mothers house and tara will be god knows where with the german so it will just me me and brenda Lezzin it up...
not that im really complaining but we will be rather lonely
and the day trevor gets back i will have to go to my ortho and they may remove my wisdom teeth
and i have to bitch later because if i bitch anymore i'll be late for work
last time i was at work it went by FAST
i was really suprised
probobly because i worked with jessie, because whenever i work with people i get along with it goes quicker

First tag:
If your life were a movie, what would it's soundtrack be?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting

Opening Credits:
"Bumble Bees-Aquarius"
I don't know why thats on my playlist I've never heard that song before but it sounds like an appropriate opening credits song.

Waking Up:
"Cold-Crossfade"
It's a rather harsh waking up song but I guess without it being harsh and loud i wouldn't get up at all.

First Day At School:
"No Giving Up-Crossfade
Enough Crossfade I don't even like them that much. But I have to admit it is the perfect school song

Falling In Love:
"We Can Do It- The Producers"
Very optomistic! I like it!

Fight Song:
"Welcome To The 60's-Hairspray"
Okay i don't know what fight that song would cover...

Breaking Up:
"HipHopopotamus vs Rymenoceros"
I guess only I would break up/get dumped to a gangster folk rap battle song

Prom night:
"Welcome to my Life-Simple Plan"
I'm gonna have an Emo prom apparently

Life:
"Love is a Battlefield-Pat Bennetar"
Great that's uplifting

Mental Breakdown:
"God That's Good-Sweeney Todd"
That's sounds about right for a mental breakdown, only cuz hes singing about how you should come inside and eat the people pies

Driving:
"I Can Hear The Bells-Hairspray"
That should have been my falling in love song...stupid hairspray

Flashback:
"If I Were Gay-Stephen Lynch
Well i was never gay...and i don't want to get into how this could relate to a flashback of mine

Getting Together Again:
"Dare-Gorillaz"
I don't even know what they are saying in this song so I don't know what to say

Wedding:
"Der Guten Tag Hop-Clop-The Producers"
OH GOD!! either I marry some crazy German fella or this is just after my mental breakdown

Birth of Child:
"Stacy's Mom-Fountains of Wayne"
huh....

Final Battle:
"Nicest Kids in Town-Hairspray"
Its not even the James Marsden version either this sucks

Funeral Song:
"Give me Life-Daniel Powter"
Finally a relevant song

Final Credits:
"The Legend of Mrs. Baltimore Crabs-Hairspray
I hope i don't end up a big stuck up slut, but at least I'll have won something

1. JD/Cox (Scrubs)
2. Janitor/Elliot (Scrubs)
3. Ron/Hermione (Harry Potter)
4. Sylar/Mohinder (Heroes)
5. Rory/Jess (Gilmore Girls)
6. Lorelai/Luke (Gilmore Girls)

THREE SHIPS I'VE ABANDONED:

7. Jack/Kate (Lost)
8. House/Cameron (House)
9. Elliot/JD (Scrubs)

THREE SHIPS I'VE NEVER LIKED:

10. Harry/Hermione (Heroes)
11. Rory/Logan (Gilmore Girls)
12. Turk/JD (Scrubs)

TWO SHIPS THAT HAVE PIQUED MY INTEREST:

13. Stan/Kyle (South Park)
14. Bret/Jermaine (Flight of the Conchords)

QUESTIONS:

1. Why do you dislike #11 so much?

Rory was too forgiving with him, he doesnt treat her right and he thinks that money can buy her and hes annoying

2. Who do you know that ships #13?

me and i dont know who else it just struck me and i love it

3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?

post dh and just a family christmas...ahhhhh...

4. What is your favorite moment for #1?

JD/Cox...when jd gets jennifer dylan and godfather and cox is all mad, and the winking moment

5. How long have you been following couple #6?

since the very first episode

6. What's the story with #8? What made you stop caring?

i found out there was never going to be any reciprication because theres that whole age difference and they are never going to really be a couple...plus shes married to chase

7. Which ship do you prefer--#2 or #4?

definately 4 theres a lot more interaction and its always sexy but the janitor elliot situation seems to have died down and thats just depressing

8. You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 or #12.

Turk/JD. It's WRONG. They're BEST FRIENDS. STAY THE HELL AWAY. I love slash much, much more than the next person, but Christ all mighty! Some friendships are sacred. You do not touch them.

9. What interests you about #14?

Bret/Jermaine....well they are very communicable and you can tell jermaine loves bret because the whole "put a wig on you when youre sleeping" bit...very sexy

10. When did you stop liking #7?

Jack/Kate...it died with the rest of the good pairings...at first they were so good for each other and then jack had to cry too much and kate had to go crazy

11. Did your waning interest in #9 kill your interest in the series?

Elliot/JD...my interest in scrubs will never wane as long as there is a janitor

12. What's a song that reminds you of #5?

Rory/Jess...all the same, its just a very sweet song that sums their relationship up

13. Which of these ships do you love the most right now?

Sylar/Mohinder...all the good fanart, hostage situations, obsession with the "list" and finding "his fathers killer" oh god i hope it never stops

14. Which do you dislike the most?

Turk/JD...i just cant picture it and i dont want to its gross, they are like brothers

15. If you could have any of these pairings double date, who would they be?

Elliot/Janitor and Luke/Lorelai, that would be a scary funny date

16. Have #2 kissed yet? Elaborate if yes.

Elliot/Janitor...if only, they did come close though

17. Did #4 have a happy ending? Do you think one is likely?

Sylar/Mohinder...only if Mo. can get over the whole "he killed my father" thing. thats so old

18. What would make you start shipping #14?

Bret/Jermaine...if they got more famous and sang more songs

19. If only one could happen, which would you prefer--#2 or #6?

i think Elliot/Janitor because L/L already happened and they just equal each others crazy so nicely

20. You have the power to decide the fate of #10. What happens to them?

harry dies...thats right i said it

a new years celebratory meme

1. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
i started pylaties and its actually really awsome

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i've been making the "lose wieght" reloslution for 3 years and it never sticks but i do work at it

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My best friends sister

4. Did anyone close to you die?
He wasnt very close but he was my friend, and i do miss him

5. What countries did you visit?
America...

6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
i would like to be thin and feel good about myself

7. What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 29, because that was the day i found out that donald died

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
finally getting the job at M&M's

9. What was your biggest failure?
never losing the weight

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i had a lot of colds and things but for the first time, all year i did not catch step throat

11. What was the best thing you bought?
the princess bride book

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Trevor cuz hes actually going to collage

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Laraisa cuz she decided to be a bitch for a while in the summer

14. Where did most of your money go?
christmas presents

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Mitch coming to visit for the day

16. What song will always remind you of 2007?
Dreaming of You-the coral

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier?
yes much happier

ii. thinner or fatter?
Probably fatter.

iii. richer or poorer?
Richer. But not by that much.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
spending time with my friends

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
spending my money

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
probobly with my friends more than my family

21. Did you fall in love in 2007?
no, but i did still have a huge crush

22. How many one-night stands?
None.

23. What was your favorite TV program?
Heroes

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
that stupid Kayla bitch that hangs onto ivan

25. What was the best book you read?
Harry potter and the princess bride

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
that i am kick ass on the drums

27. What did you want and get?
CELL PHONE AND A WII

28. What did you want and not get?
gilmore girls season 7

29. What was your favorite film of this year?
stardust, and hairspray

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
My friends threw me a LOST/Spiderman themed suprise party

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more mitch

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007?
mostly yellow/green/brown ensambles, and very girly clothes

33. What kept you sane?
Spending time with my friends

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ZACHARY QUINTO

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
i didnt really pay attention to politics

36. Who did you miss?
MITCH

37. Who was the best new person you met?
All the people at M&M's

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2007?
dont freak out when someone cooks your chicken strips

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Good Morning Edmonton, theres the flasher who lives next door, theres the bum on his barroom stool, they wish me luck on my way to school

BAD INFLUENCE QUIZ

If you go over 45, you're a bad influence.
If you go under 10, chances are you live under a rock and have no life... even more harsh.
Total the number of things in each list you've done.

1. smoked.
2.XX consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. XXslept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. XXhad someone in your room other than family.
7. watched porn.
8. bought porn.
9. done drugs.
TOTAL: 3

1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. XXlied to your parents.
4. XXlied to a friend. (small white ones!)
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. XXcut yourself on purpose.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
TOTAL: 3

1. XXmissed curfew.
2. XXstayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
7. received a ticket.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
TOTAL: 2

1. been to a wild party.
2. seen Mardi Gras.
3. drank more than four beers in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. XXwore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. own a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 1

1. dressed gothic.
2. XXdressed prep.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
10. had someone sneak into your room.
TOTAL: 1

1. snuck into someone else's room.
2. had a crush on your best (guy/girl)friend.
3. been to a concert.
4. dry-humped someone.
5. been called a slut.
6. called someone a slut.
7. installed speakers in your car.
8. broken a mirror.
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush. (My sister's?)
TOTAL: 3

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaraunt without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
TOTAL: 0

1. owned/rented an apartment.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. cheated with someone.
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harrassed.
10. been verbally harrassed.
TOTAL: 0

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 12 hours straight.
3. XXtalked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 12 hours straight.
5. XXbeen to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 2

ALTOGETHER TOTAL: 15

If you get more than 20 you’re paranoid.

If you get 10-20 then you are normal.

If you get 10 or less you’re fearless.

People who don’t have any are full of shit!

I Fear…

1. [X] the dark........... i can sleep in it i just get paranoid in it
2. [x] staying single forever...........can`t stand loneliness
3. [x] being a parent.........what if im a bad one
4. [] giving birth
5. [] being myself in front of others
6. [] open spaces
7. [] closed spaces
8. [] heights
9. [] black cats
10. [] dogs
11. [] birds
12. [] fish
13. [x] spiders.......no great explanation, they`re just creepy
14. [] flowers or other plants
15. [] being touched
16. [] fire
17. [x] deep water.........i always think a shark is gonna get me
18. [x] lakes....................see above
19. [] silk
20. [x] the ocean...............again, sharks
21. [x] failure......because I always think I fail at whatever I do
22. [] success
23. [] thunder/lightning
24. [] frogs/toads
25. [] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
26. [] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
27. [] mice/rats
28. [] jumping from high places
29. [] snow
30. [] rain
31. [] wind
32. [x] crossing hanging bridges...i always think the ropes are gonna snap right when im in the middle
33. [x] death..............not MY death, other peoples death.
34. [] heaven
35. [] being robbed
36. [x] falling.............if its from a high place hell yeah
37. [] clowns
38. [] large crowds of people
39. [] men
40. [] women
41. [x] having great responsibilities...dunno what to say here :/
42. [] doctors, including dentists
43. [] tornadoes
44. [] hurricanes
45. [] incurable diseases
46. [] snakes
47. [X] sharks....................if you didn't get it from the previous 3 questions, im afraid of sharks
48. [] Friday the 13th
49. [] ghosts
50. [] poverty
51. [] Halloween
52. [] school
53. [] trains
54. [x] odd numbers..............i dont know why, i just cant stand odd numbers
55. [] even numbers
56. [x] being alone............this is my WORST fear ever
57. [x] becoming blind....it`s not that I think about that very often, but now as you mention it...yeah, it would definitely suck
58. [x] becoming deaf....same here
59. [] growing up
60. [x] monsters under my bed (as in scary people).........HELL YEAH i made my parents get me a bed that was about an inch off the ground so nobody would fit under it
61. [x] creepy noises in the night...not really creeping me out, just disturbing
62. [] bee stings
63. [x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals... <_< 64. [] needles 65. [] blood 66. [] dinosaurs if they were alive 67. [] the welcome mat 68. [] high speeds 69. [x] throwing up...not really scared, it`s just disgusting 70. [x]falling in love...only if that includes the fear of not being loved back Score: 22

 this is my first entry in my newwww journal...YAY
alright first heroes